Wednesday, May 29, 2013

The birth of our little lady


One week ago our family of four became a family of five. Addison Corey was born May 17, 2013 at 2:46 am, weighing 7.4lbs. & 18 1/2 inches long, she completes our family. A very bitter sweet moment having a little girl and knowing she is our last baby. I want to savor every waking moment, I want to slow down and cherish each moment with all of my kids. Seeing this tiny little bean just reiterates how fast time really does go. It seems like I just brought Carter and Nolan home not that long ago and now they tower over her like the big brothers they are. 
Here is how our little lady joined us: 
On Tuesday the 14th I had my last doctor's appointment and he decided to move up my induction date because I was already dilated and she seemed ready to come a little early. I went home to prepare for Thursday May 16. Come Thursday morning I had to call the hospital every couple of hours, starting at 6:30am in hopes they had a room ready for us. After a long agonizing day I called at 4pm and a nurse told me "Oh no, your doctor rescheduled you for Monday", I started to cry. It is kind of a big deal when you tell a very pregnant woman they are going to have a baby but then that they have to wait 5 more days. I talked with my doctor and he said asked about my contractions which I had been having all day, they just hadn't been regular yet. He told me if they were to get stronger to come to the hospital because he was on call all night long. And so we walked, I was determined to have this baby that day. And sure enough the contractions got stronger and regular within a few hours and we headed to the hospital. Our doctor met us,  confirmed I was in labor and admitted us to the hospital. 
Dressing into the hospital gown I looked around the room and wanted to take it all in, this was the last time, the last baby we would bring into our family. And as much as I was ready to hold my baby girl I wanted to feel her move around in my belly for just a bit longer. I listened to the monitor, heard her heart beating and her moving around, knowing in a few hours I would actually be able to feel her heart beating on my chest.   My water was broke at 11:45 and I waited for the nurse to tell me it was time. I was too excited and nervous to sleep so I laid there imagining what her little face would look like, what color her eyes would be, how much hair she would have and what would her brothers think of her. It was about 2:40am and I was ready for our daughter to join our family. Literally three contractions and at 2:46am she arrived. 
I don't want to forget one moment of her birth or the boy's for that matter. Bringing babies into the world has made me a mama, a joy you could never put into words. I am on a high still, I look down at her and my heart skips a beat. I look at my sweet boys and they way they love her and I am overwhelmed with joy and love. We have been blessed with three beautiful children and we couldn't be happier. 

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Mother's Day


A perfect day spent with my boys, big and small. Daddy let Mama sleep in, got up with the kids and had breakfast ready when I woke up. We relaxed in our jammies until the late morning and then headed to downtown Enumclaw. Enjoyed a yummy lunch and then hit up the town to explore.

I can't imagine our lives without our babes. I dreamed of being a mama my entire life, honestly nothing makes me happier.

Happy Mother's Day to all the beautiful women in my life. Especially my mama who made me the mama I am today. Love you!
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Uncle Josh


Uncle Josh was in town for a short time so we got to catch up. Nolan has decided Uncle Josh is his new best bud. They have quite the connection. Now I just have to make sure when Nolan wants to visit Uncle Josh there is a no swearing, skateboarding, or tatooing allowed! Ha! No but seriously Uncle Josh, no tatoos even if they say "Mom". Got it?!!
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Enjoying the outdoors


We were blessed with a week full of sunshine and loved every minute of it!
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Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Our first moments. . .


With the day slowly but surely approaching I am thinking back to my first moments with the boys. Each so different and each so special in their own way. Being a first time mom you have no idea what is going on, you are so scared yet the most excited you have ever been. Our sweet little Carter came flying into the world and his unexpected extra chromosome took us by surprise. Then came little Nolan who made a quiet entrance into the world and has been nothing close to quiet since. But with each one a completely wide range of emotions felt. The anguish and grief we experienced with Carter's diagnosis, the unknown of what was to come. Knowing what we know now, our fears could have been subsided. Waiting for Nolan to arrive, again the unknown was tough to swallow. Feeling gulity if we prayed for him to not have a diagonosis was somehow wrong because we loved Carter so much just the way he was. An inner battle that I imagine other parents in our shoes go through as well.  

So I sit here now counting down the days and wonder what her birth will be like. What will she look like? Will she be okay? Will I be okay? The anxiety of the indefinite is sometimes too much to think about but yet I have always said that I would not want to know during my pregnancy and opt for no testing with all of my babies. I would be lying if I said the thought hasn't crossed my mind, a diagnosis of Down syndrome or anything else for that matter.  I may never say out loud some of the fears I had with Carter right after his birth although I would not have done it any other way. From the first moment I laid my eyes on him, I knew he was mine, mine to take care of, mine to love and mine to protect. And just when you think you couldn't love another just as the first your heart expands and you find yourself loving another the same but yet differently. Each of our babies are unique and I cherish each of them with all of my heart. 
I look forward to our first moments my little lady. I can't wait to hold you in my arms and inhale your sweet smell. I want to look into your eyes and tell you how much your mama loves you and how I have been dreaming about you for so long. 
I keep having the feeling you won't be waiting until the 20th of May to be here but we will see. I can't wait to have you here to complete our family.