Sunday, January 18, 2009

Time is flying by. . .

I already want to stop time, I want to keep my precious baby like this forever. The last two weeks have been so much fun, Carter has gone on so many adventures. We have gone out to lunch, dinner, shopping, over to Grandma & Grandpa's and next week we are going to go to school! I need to go visit my school and my mom's school. I miss everyone so much and I can't wait to see how big my kindergartner's are. Carter won't be able to meet the kids just yet though, just the teachers. Mommy is still scared of germs.

Carter got his first cold, which puzzles me because I have been a freak about germs and keeping him bundled from head to toe and I thought breast milk protected him. My doctor said if it was a cold that I hadn't been exposed to then we both get it. So we got a humidifier and keep him propped up while he sleeps. I feel so bad for him, I wish I could just tell him to blow his nose but obviously that doesn't work.

I started a new book called "Gifts". I am hoping that slowly easing my way into the reading that I will become a little bit stronger and possibly ready to learn as much as I can. What I have enjoyed about the book so far is that it is written by 64 mothers who have gone through exactly what I am. It is so reassuring to know I am not alone. I read one mother's story who said after the diagnosis she looked down at her infant and asked herself "will he ever have a job?" That usually isn't a thought that immediately goes through a mother's head right after she has given birth but it is when you have a child born with special needs. It is a question I asked myself in the beginning also but now I am trying to slow down and enjoy every last minute of life. Carter brings out the best in Eric and I and I am sure he will do the same for anyone he meets.

I have so much to learn and I realize there is a wealth of information out there but I want to live in the moment. If you want to learn about Hawaii, you read a book about Hawaii and it is informative, but to go to Hawaii and stick your feet in the sand is breathtaking. Carter will be our teacher and we will learn about him as life goes on. A book can't help you raise your child, life experiences will help us raise our child.

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